Its 1.20pm now , I've been sleeping after 4 every night. My eye bags are getting heavier.
Esp plus those crying. Its worst.
Well , back from sentosa. With Shuen Stead & Vernon. (Another person name I dont wanna mention)
Quite fun though , manage to get suntan.
Talked to Abby , hope she's fine. Luv.
Training tomorrow , hope is not a tiring one.



Well , I dont know how long this part is gonna be. I just feel like typing out everything how I feel.
Wanna read it anot , up to you.
The first time I know you was through Xiaoqiang , got my number also from him.
You missed call me , because I was sleeping. I woke up , & called back.
You keep disturb me. You call & text me everyday.
Till one day you confess that you like me alil. I never thought that you would fall in love with me , cause you told me that you've your own target alr.
& At that time , I realise I start to fall in love with you alr.
I dont know whats the reason for me to fall in love with you , but I just love talking to you.
The first time we date , was at great world.
We secretly met each other , because at that time you dont wan any of your friends to know.
You took away my first kiss on the first date , & at that time I know I really love you alr.
Slowly our second & third came. I've never expect me to become your longest stead.
Till the fourth , quarrel & arguement start coming out.
We seperated for four months that time , & in between so many things happened.
I never thought that I would be together with you after the four months , things start to get better.
& suddenly , I dont know what the hell happen again. We start to quarrel even more.
Break & patch for dont know how many times alr.
I dont know whether am I still important to you ?
I dont know whether am I still the first position inside your heart ?
I dont know if we should still continue all this things ?
I'm giving up alr , really.
I always say that I wanna give up on you , but I didnt. Cause I wanna give you chance.
But now , is really over the limit alr.
Alot of things happened. You scolded me bitch , slut , prositude & flirt.
All this I can take it , but why ? Why must you scold me like this ?
I'm a human too , I've feelings too. Cant you feel that I'm hurt ?
If I'm not hurt , what for I cry ?
I just text boys or even talk to boys , you come scold me alr.
Whats wrong with messaging boys & talking ?
Arent they my friends ? Friends cant talk or text ? I've no freedom to make friends ?
Sigh , I just dont understand.
Doesnt mean you have stress you can scold me whatever you like , I'm not your rubbish bin to collect whatever things which you're unhappy at. You're stress , so am I.
I admit , sometimes I'm a lil bossy , petty or even show you attitude.
I apologise to you.
I've never love a guy so deepily like you before , why cant you believe ?
We both lost trust in each other alr , esp you , you dont even trust me.
DO YOU KNOW THAT I'M FUCKING SCARED , I'M SCARED THAT THE BLOODY ESTINI WILL FLIRT YOU. YOU KNOW ?!
YOU JUST DONT KNOW HOW FUCKING FLIRT IS SHE. GET IT ?!
I do all this is cause I care , cause I really love you.
Well , all this are all useless alr.
Let go & both of us will be happy. I'm happy that I once belongs to you alr.
Dont need to contact me anymore , I've deleted your number & msn.
From today onwards , good luck in everything.
Bye.


Sorry people for that long post , I'm just feeling upset now.
Thanks Abby & Shuen for comforting. Luv you guys.
Pictures up soon.