I know , I'm always the one not giving in to you. But this is who am I.
I admit , I've got attitude problem. But you dont need to treat me like this right.
Sigh. I've tried so hard to mantain our relationship , but I always fail too.
I know , I'm a lousy stead/girlf , I'm not like others girls. Being romantic , sweet & caring.
But I still do have feelings , I do feel those hurt & insult.
Do you know that whenever you scold me or even show me attitude , I feel like crying out loud.
But I cant , because I wanna let you know that I'm strong. Sigh.
Mayb I dont understand you at all , although we've know each other for 1year plus.
I've done so much things because of you , & yet you dont even know.
I've quitted smoking , study hard , stop hanging around with people , go home early , communicate well with my parents , stop slashing , stop sleeping during lessons , studying for upcoming test & even trying to change myself , all this I've done is because of you.
I'm sorry if I always show attitude , throw temper at you , making you difficult , making you jealous , worry , cry & make you hurting yourself. I swear , all this wont happened anymore.
I've realise how much you meant to me , you're so important to me that I dont wanna lose you , you make me know whats the meaning of love , you make me know how to cherish , & many many more.
I cant imagine life without you , but if really one day I've let go , I'm sorry.
Is not that I dont love you anymore , but is I love you too much that I dont wanna hurt you anymore.
I'll remember you , our memories & our everything inside my heart deeply.
Nothing last forever , remember this. Is either now or later.
You're the best I've ever met , & is enough. I guess you will find another better girl than me.
Our relationship make me learn alot of things & even experience alot. I've learn to be strong & let you go.
I'll let this long suffering come to an end. I'm sorry for making this selfish decision.
Good luck for everything. I love you baby.
Okay , for the first time I've type something for so long ! I'm just typing how I'm feeling now.
Sigh , so many things happening this few days. Currently talking to Abby , Leron & Loren at msn.
For the first time , I've talk so long at msn. Lol. All thanks to some people , creating so many problems.
I'm having two days mc now , having high fever , sore throat & headache.
I wanna go school la. Sian. Eating those medicine three times a day , totally suck okay.
Family dinner yesterday at cresent , no appetite to eat. Because was not feeling well at that time already.
Sian , mood gone uh.
Okay la. Done updating. Too long already !
Bye (:
Love Abby , Jieying , Shuen & Zhixiu.
